Month: October 2014

On World Asthma Day this year a report into the number of asthmas deaths was released. It was shocking. I was shocked and could never imagine how so many people could die from asthma....but then again after what I experienced recently I can quiet believe how the statistics are so shocking. The report can be… Continue reading How can change ever happen??

Taking action early and recognising the signs of an asthma attack has not paid off. In fact quite the opposite. I think as a result of taking early action has caused me to spend way more time in hospital than required and also has made me question what the point is if this is the… Continue reading 1 night, 2 hospitals, 2 ambulances, 1 first responder and 1emergency bike

Everyone wakes up in the middle of the night for some reason or other and will either roll back over and drift off to sleep or will toss and turn unsettled for the rest of the night. I can't remember the last time I had a full night sleep. One of the problems of my… Continue reading Alone with my thoughts and a 1am neb!!

https://totallyanonymousasthma.wordpress.com/2013/10/25/turning-point/ A year ago almost to the day I made the above post. A post which at the time I never thought I would do. I had never dreamed of wanting to go back on long term prednisilone. But 348 days later and I am still on those tiny tablets I hate so much. At… Continue reading A year ago almost to the day

Working as a nurse I have sadly witnessed death too many times to count. I have seen people die expectedly and unexpectedly neither of which is easy and they never will become easy. One part of my job which gives me comfort I suppose I could call it is when a patient is comfortable and… Continue reading Facing your own mortality

I find it amazing that after 10 years plus of living like this people around me still don't get how fragile my chest is and something that is very easy for someone to do can cause 2 or 3 days recuperation for me. I had this last night. I just need to get this off… Continue reading People just don’t get it

Today at work my two worlds sort of collided. I don't really know how to express it but I will try. I can't talk much about my work other than that I am a renal nurse and part of the community dialysis team doing peritoneal dialysis. Mainly for professionalism and patient confidentiality etc it nots… Continue reading Two worlds colliding

Since dropping my hours at work I have more time to myself. Which is a good thing but on the other hand it is also not. By working shorter hours I am able to rest because for the first time I am feeling very tired and recognising how tired I feel. By finishing work earlier… Continue reading Achieving dreams and making targets!!

When part of you knows you should go and get help, that little person in the back of your head saying its getting to hard and your tired but then with that all important test and appointment coming up you just don't want to give in.   This is how I feel just now. Many… Continue reading Holding out