One of the triggers for my asthma is stress. I often feel that I just jump from one stressful situation to the next no matter how hard I try to avoid it. I previously thought i was really weak because stress could have such an effect on my physical health. There are still so many days where I won’t accept that stress could be what is contributing to my feeling rubbish and my asthma being so unstable. Slowly I am changing my way of thinking and actually seeing that the more I fight against the idea that stress is making my asthma bad the more stressed I am actually getting as I am trying to find some other cause. Stress is not the only trigger for my asthma but it is one of them.
One of the real benefits I have found from going back to my old consultant is that she knows me really well and she can tell if I am stressed etc and will tell me straight up what she thinks. Even if I try to convince her otherwise I must admit she is right. She sent me to see a psychologist which once again I tried convince her I was ok and didnt need to go but I am glad I went. It helps to get different tools to use in everyday life to minimise the physical effects stress can have.
Over the past while I have been really struggling with all aspects of life I guess in a way things just got on top of me. I think mainly because you do something to help someone and basically you get kicked for it leaving me thinking I made the worse decision in my life. I kept these thoughts to myself and it really did eat me up inside until a really small incident happened which was the straw that broke the camels back. I had a very long chat with my step brother and sister and law and did a lot of thinking and came to the conclusion I need to look out for myself and do what is best for me in doing this others may get hurt but I am getting hurt and not only mentally but it is having a bad effect on my asthma. It infuriates me when someone who is meant to be someone you trust and is family but can screw so many people just for their own gain. I need to do what is in my best interest so after a lot of thinking and writing various letters to work how best to say what I need to.
I have noticed a difference this week as I feel so much better and I think its because I don’t have this weight and regret on me anymore. I have been sleeping so much better, been able to play softball with my team as well as going out for dinner after the match. I was also able to play golf after work a few times too. Being able to do this things have boosted me and I have been able to forget about my worries. I hope the situation sorts out and if it doesn’t I know I have done what I need to to alleviate my stress.
Now I am looking forward to more good health and enjoy the summer!